to him..

kenape die x muncul hari ini..saye tunggu die..saye tahu die takut dengan ape yang berlaku..saye pun takut dengan ape yg saye rase..tapi saye tahu semue tu x kan kemane..awak jangan bimbang saye x kan pegi lebih jauh klu ade ape2 yang berlaku antara kite..saye x kan bawak awak jauh dari ape yang awak boleh pegi..saye tahu kedudukan awak..saye pun x nak semue ni belaku..awak yang muncul dalam hidup saye,awak yang mulekan semue ni..awak yang menimbulkan semue perasaan ini..awak saye ok la..saye tahu sape saye..saye pun x nak..awak jangan takut..saye ok..awak jgak akn ok..kite boleh jadi kawan yang baik la..awk jangan bimbang ok..awak tolong la jangan larikan diri..awk kene terima kenyataan ini..saye x kan pegi jauh dari ape yang sepatutnye..saye akan tolong awak untuk hilangkan perasaan itu..saye tahu awak merindu saye..sebab saye jugak merasekan bende yang same..saye akan tgu awak..smpai mane awak akan jauhkan diri dari saye yang x besalah ni..saye pasti awak akn muncul dan selesaikan semue ini..

not the apple of my eyes anymore..

yesterday i feel something about him..may be after a long silence..thats why i miss him..we're so happy to get back again..but not today..the something i feel towards him is gone with the wind..no that something anymore..why am i so serius about him..thats the big question inside my brain..no no no..u cant have that something about him..i fight so hard to let this something about him to fly away..ok,enough u!,u can live as happy as u r before u know that something about him..bye bye something..:)

feeling...

what i feel is not what i want..i never asked for this feeling..im afraid it will cause a disaster to my happy life..but it still come naturally without my consent..hmm,hate it..:(

i dont know...

saye x thu nk terime ke tidak..mcm takut..tapi mcm ok..ntah la.nanti la bagi jawapan..biar die tgu..klu betul die nk..kene usaha..

what a dream...

last nite saye bermimpi..sgt best n klaka..saye suke at the same time rase pelik..hehe
anyway..saye penah berangan untuk seperti itu,tapi not that serius smpai boleh bawak dalam tido..ape2 pun saye suke mimpi tu..wlupun x jadi kenyataan..

have i fall in love with him or i love him or its just a greedy love towards him...

i never expect i will feel this kind of feeling towards him..i never realize this feeling..when i started to realize this feeling,i hardly breath,i lost my focus on work n daily life..i don't know when this feeling get in to me..if i know this feeling will cause me so much pain,i will build a wall around me n chase it away..n i will never have this feeling..now i live my life with this feeling..never ending feeling towards him..

i dont understand..what happened to me..

i dont really understand what happened to me..i think im mature enough to face all the things and i cant except anything with positively..without any bad feelings..its so funny me..i cant believe that i can acting like this in my age..hahaha..hmmm,but i still feel that im still young..so go to the hell with that feeling..:(