Randomly think...

last nite, i attending my best fren reception..she is gorgeous,beautiful n fill with so much joy..n saye sebagai her best fren,sgt happy ngan fasa baru kehidupan die..tapi 30% of me sgt jeles ngan die ok..hahaha..well human being mmg ade perasaan itu..no objection ya..just admit it..before,i pun x pecaye ade perasaan itu..but i slowly found out that i mmg ade perasaan jeles..jeles tengok die cantik,jeles die dapt husband yg menarik,husband yg keje pilot ok..hmm,saye nk jgak..nk cantik macm die..nk dpt husband macam die..nk husband keje pilot jgak..saye nk ape yg die dpt n ade..jelesnye saye..tuhan saje yg tahu..tapi saye tetap bersyukur dengan ape yg saye ade..tuhan maha adil..saye gembire ngan ape yg saye ade..wlupun x mcm die tapi saye gembire..saye harap saye akn dpt ape yg die dpat satu hari nanti..ya allah berikan aku jodoh yg baik dan sempurna yg dapt membimbimg aku ke jalan mu..amin..

his back..

yes!..his back..ok..i knew it..thank u for coming back..and im really happy..yes he miss me n think the same way..hehehe..and i've told him im scared..i have no idea,where did i get the guts ckp cm tu kt die..omg!,im totally out of mind or totally goin crazy..yes i admit i mcm feeling2 rindu kt die..n i know i will let him go jgak one day..i guess this is just infatuation je kot..not for long2 time nye memory..sory u,i will let u go in anytime..i know u feel the way i feel,but u have a commitment..so u cant say something yang boleh meyakinkan i..its ok,i dont ask for that..u free to go anytime u want..it would't hurt me,even it is yes,it will hurt me a bit..but i'll be ok..thank u for missing me n thank u for cheering my day..and i really had a good time talking to u..:))

waiting...

hello..againnnn..u such a coward ok..why u have to hide urself..why u have to remain silence..im not chasing u..but i need a confirmation..u r the one who start all this things..come on la man,where's ur guts ha?..ok,i will patiently waiting..let's see how long u can hide urself from me..im ok..n u?..r u ok?..hmm,i guess u r not ok..:)

to him..

kenape die x muncul hari ini..saye tunggu die..saye tahu die takut dengan ape yang berlaku..saye pun takut dengan ape yg saye rase..tapi saye tahu semue tu x kan kemane..awak jangan bimbang saye x kan pegi lebih jauh klu ade ape2 yang berlaku antara kite..saye x kan bawak awak jauh dari ape yang awak boleh pegi..saye tahu kedudukan awak..saye pun x nak semue ni belaku..awak yang muncul dalam hidup saye,awak yang mulekan semue ni..awak yang menimbulkan semue perasaan ini..awak saye ok la..saye tahu sape saye..saye pun x nak..awak jangan takut..saye ok..awak jgak akn ok..kite boleh jadi kawan yang baik la..awk jangan bimbang ok..awak tolong la jangan larikan diri..awk kene terima kenyataan ini..saye x kan pegi jauh dari ape yang sepatutnye..saye akan tolong awak untuk hilangkan perasaan itu..saye tahu awak merindu saye..sebab saye jugak merasekan bende yang same..saye akan tgu awak..smpai mane awak akan jauhkan diri dari saye yang x besalah ni..saye pasti awak akn muncul dan selesaikan semue ini..

not the apple of my eyes anymore..

yesterday i feel something about him..may be after a long silence..thats why i miss him..we're so happy to get back again..but not today..the something i feel towards him is gone with the wind..no that something anymore..why am i so serius about him..thats the big question inside my brain..no no no..u cant have that something about him..i fight so hard to let this something about him to fly away..ok,enough u!,u can live as happy as u r before u know that something about him..bye bye something..:)

feeling...

what i feel is not what i want..i never asked for this feeling..im afraid it will cause a disaster to my happy life..but it still come naturally without my consent..hmm,hate it..:(