Randomly think...

last nite, i attending my best fren reception..she is gorgeous,beautiful n fill with so much joy..n saye sebagai her best fren,sgt happy ngan fasa baru kehidupan die..tapi 30% of me sgt jeles ngan die ok..hahaha..well human being mmg ade perasaan itu..no objection ya..just admit it..before,i pun x pecaye ade perasaan itu..but i slowly found out that i mmg ade perasaan jeles..jeles tengok die cantik,jeles die dapt husband yg menarik,husband yg keje pilot ok..hmm,saye nk jgak..nk cantik macm die..nk dpt husband macam die..nk husband keje pilot jgak..saye nk ape yg die dpt n ade..jelesnye saye..tuhan saje yg tahu..tapi saye tetap bersyukur dengan ape yg saye ade..tuhan maha adil..saye gembire ngan ape yg saye ade..wlupun x mcm die tapi saye gembire..saye harap saye akn dpt ape yg die dpat satu hari nanti..ya allah berikan aku jodoh yg baik dan sempurna yg dapt membimbimg aku ke jalan mu..amin..

his back..

yes!..his back..ok..i knew it..thank u for coming back..and im really happy..yes he miss me n think the same way..hehehe..and i've told him im scared..i have no idea,where did i get the guts ckp cm tu kt die..omg!,im totally out of mind or totally goin crazy..yes i admit i mcm feeling2 rindu kt die..n i know i will let him go jgak one day..i guess this is just infatuation je kot..not for long2 time nye memory..sory u,i will let u go in anytime..i know u feel the way i feel,but u have a commitment..so u cant say something yang boleh meyakinkan i..its ok,i dont ask for that..u free to go anytime u want..it would't hurt me,even it is yes,it will hurt me a bit..but i'll be ok..thank u for missing me n thank u for cheering my day..and i really had a good time talking to u..:))

waiting...

hello..againnnn..u such a coward ok..why u have to hide urself..why u have to remain silence..im not chasing u..but i need a confirmation..u r the one who start all this things..come on la man,where's ur guts ha?..ok,i will patiently waiting..let's see how long u can hide urself from me..im ok..n u?..r u ok?..hmm,i guess u r not ok..:)

to him..

kenape die x muncul hari ini..saye tunggu die..saye tahu die takut dengan ape yang berlaku..saye pun takut dengan ape yg saye rase..tapi saye tahu semue tu x kan kemane..awak jangan bimbang saye x kan pegi lebih jauh klu ade ape2 yang berlaku antara kite..saye x kan bawak awak jauh dari ape yang awak boleh pegi..saye tahu kedudukan awak..saye pun x nak semue ni belaku..awak yang muncul dalam hidup saye,awak yang mulekan semue ni..awak yang menimbulkan semue perasaan ini..awak saye ok la..saye tahu sape saye..saye pun x nak..awak jangan takut..saye ok..awak jgak akn ok..kite boleh jadi kawan yang baik la..awk jangan bimbang ok..awak tolong la jangan larikan diri..awk kene terima kenyataan ini..saye x kan pegi jauh dari ape yang sepatutnye..saye akan tolong awak untuk hilangkan perasaan itu..saye tahu awak merindu saye..sebab saye jugak merasekan bende yang same..saye akan tgu awak..smpai mane awak akan jauhkan diri dari saye yang x besalah ni..saye pasti awak akn muncul dan selesaikan semue ini..

not the apple of my eyes anymore..

yesterday i feel something about him..may be after a long silence..thats why i miss him..we're so happy to get back again..but not today..the something i feel towards him is gone with the wind..no that something anymore..why am i so serius about him..thats the big question inside my brain..no no no..u cant have that something about him..i fight so hard to let this something about him to fly away..ok,enough u!,u can live as happy as u r before u know that something about him..bye bye something..:)

feeling...

what i feel is not what i want..i never asked for this feeling..im afraid it will cause a disaster to my happy life..but it still come naturally without my consent..hmm,hate it..:(

i dont know...

saye x thu nk terime ke tidak..mcm takut..tapi mcm ok..ntah la.nanti la bagi jawapan..biar die tgu..klu betul die nk..kene usaha..

what a dream...

last nite saye bermimpi..sgt best n klaka..saye suke at the same time rase pelik..hehe
anyway..saye penah berangan untuk seperti itu,tapi not that serius smpai boleh bawak dalam tido..ape2 pun saye suke mimpi tu..wlupun x jadi kenyataan..

have i fall in love with him or i love him or its just a greedy love towards him...

i never expect i will feel this kind of feeling towards him..i never realize this feeling..when i started to realize this feeling,i hardly breath,i lost my focus on work n daily life..i don't know when this feeling get in to me..if i know this feeling will cause me so much pain,i will build a wall around me n chase it away..n i will never have this feeling..now i live my life with this feeling..never ending feeling towards him..

i dont understand..what happened to me..

i dont really understand what happened to me..i think im mature enough to face all the things and i cant except anything with positively..without any bad feelings..its so funny me..i cant believe that i can acting like this in my age..hahaha..hmmm,but i still feel that im still young..so go to the hell with that feeling..:(

im waiting for smeone to sing me this song..

(Where Do I Begin) Love Story

Where do I begin
To tell the story of how great a love can be
The sweet love story that is older than the sea
The simple truth about the love she brings to me
Where do I start

With her first hello
She gave new meaning to this empty world of mine
There'd never be another love, another time
She came into my life and made the living fine
She fills my heart

She fills my heart with very special things
With angels songs , with wild imaginings
She fills my soul with so much love
That anywhere I go Im never lonely
With her around, who could be lonely
I reach for her hand-its always there

How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now but this much I can say
I know Ill need her till the stars all burn away
And shell be there

How long does it last
Can love be measured by the hours in a day
I have no answers now but this much I can say
I know Ill need her till the stars all burn away
And shell be there

hmm..this song is so meaningful..i've listen to this song since my youngest age lagi..daddy n mummy nyanyi lagu ni..then uncle n aunty..till now pun masih suke ngan lagu ni..so saye sedang menunggu siape yg akan nyanyi kan lagu ni untuk saye..

saye rase saye suke die..

die lain dari yang lain yang saye pernah kenal..saye suke ape yang die buat dan saye suke care die..tapi akan ade yang menghalang..hmmm,masih panjang lagi untuk mengetahui ape kesudahannya..but im ok..die antara pilihan yang diberi..tapi saye masih mengharapkan yang lebih baik dan lebih dari die..yang tak mempunyai halangan-halangan yang harus ditempuhi..:)

saye bosan dalam gembire..

hmm..minggu yang kesekian kalinye saye bosan..tapi saye gembire..

finally saye bejaye jgak tukar saye nye background...huhuhu

saye dh bejaye tukar background,tapi ade bende yang cam hilang..bnyak kene explore..x pe esok2 saye akan buat lagi..yang penting saye dah thu nk buat cam ner..hehehe..;)

another celebrity crush..lalala..;)

hmm..i sgt suke berperasaan begini..saye sgt suke kt die..gorgeous,handsome,comel,baik,sopan santun,n mcm2 lagi yg trbaik ade dlam diri die..thats what i see..hehehe..yang pastinya saye rase sgt jatuh cinta ngan die..hahaha..shame on me..kt sini saye nk bgthu yg saye sgt suke dan jatuh cinta dngan die..saye nk die semalam,arini,esok dan selamanye..i suke uuuu...;)

x bejaye...

saye kecewe ni..x bejaye menukar layout..dh penat mencube ni..hmm,x pe saye akan cube lagi..

yeyey!!!!..finally i made it..

finally...saye bejaye tukar jgak..

hmmm..ape yg patut saye lakukan..

tibe2 arini terase nk menulis emule dalam blog ygdh lame ditinggalkan...lately semenjak bosan x de keje nk dibuat saye asyik bace blog2 org je..so saye rase saye nk update my blog jgak..hari ni dah 5 hari saye menikmati hidup di umur 29 tahun..saye sgt gembire dan bersyukur masih lagi dapt menikmati kehidupan ini..saye jgak rase syukur sgt diberi kehidupan yang baik..pendek kate kehidupan saye baik-baik sahaje..:)..
dalam menjalani kehidupan ini,ade mase nye saye masih mencari2..hmm,saye rase ade lagi yg belum cukup dlam hidup saye..saye mah yg lebih baik..tapi mcm susah untuk diperolehi..tapi saye akan cube jgak untuk mendapatkan nye..saye thu tuhan itu adil dan saksama..hanya saye perlu lebih berusaha unutk mendapatkanye...saye akn terus berusaha..hehehe

miss my people and all we had done together...

hmmm...kenet,miamor,fiza,balqis...i miss u guys so so so so so so so much...boring nye hidup i x de u ol semue...semue yang i buat cm x best je cos u guys x de kt sini...boring x gaduh ngan cik kenet,boring jgak x dapt ckp2 ngan miamor n gelak2 ngan die,boring jgak x dapat dengar cite fiza and boring jgak x dengar balqis bebel n gelagat die yang ntah ape2...rindu nk jalan2 ngan u ol cm dulu2..wlupun penat tapi x rase penat...gembire sgt kite dulu2..skrg ni bosan sgt..wlupun ade kwn n geng baru tpi x same ngan u ol yg i sayang sgt2..i nk pegi funfair lagi ngn u ol,nk karaoke ngan u ol,nak kayuh basikal ngan u ol,nak makn ngan u ol,nk tengok movie ngn u ol,nk buat semue ngan u ol..so sad to think we cant do all the activities as much as we want...its cos so much pain to think u guys r so far and cant be all the time near me...i cant stop tears from goin down whnever i think of u guys...